Cherry Blossom
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“There came a time when the risk to remain tight in the bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom.”
- Anais Nin
When I first decided I wanted to be a companion, I approached it like I approach every new task – with massive amounts of research. I read a mountain of books and visited countless escort websites and blogs on the internet. I searched the websites like I would search had I been looking for a companion myself. I soon learned that while each website had the basics of physical statistics and promises of a romantic fantasy with a charming and beautiful woman, what stood out me were the websites that gave me more than just a carbon copy of a generic fantasy. I was drawn to the women and men who had a unique spark, cultivated it and expressed it through their web presence.
Two in particular (Gillette and Livvy) really shaped how I approached the profession. Both were informative and made me ask some really hard questions about myself and why I wanted to do this. I realized that while I was attractive and good company, with a compassionate heart, what would be the most value to my clients was my view of the world and ability to see the beauty in it. One of my most important tasks as a companion would be to nourish beauty. As my purpose grew in depth over the following year, I began to understand that my work would extend beyond one-on-one companionship to helping others begin to see and nourish their own beauty.
Heavily inspired by one of Livvy’s first posts about becoming a courtesan, I created a curriculum of education to help me refine my natural talents and identify my weaknesses. It was patterned after the esoteric elements as a nod to the esoteric teachings that continue to be so much a part of my understanding of the world. I named the work “The Elements of Enchantment”.
The first section was named “Flora”. Flora is considered a fifth, harmonizing element in esoteric literature. While the fifth element is more commonly called “spirit” or “aether”, I’m very fond of flowers and “flora” appeals to me because of the sense of earthly life that the abstract nature of “aether” doesn’t hold for me. When I think of my heart, I think of it as a deep sunset pink flower opening, giving of itself and receiving from the earth. Flora calls to mind many things that I want to cultivate within myself. Gentleness, harmony with nature, a simple joy in being exactly what I am. Flora invokes the the cycles of life and growth that we must all move through and the strength it takes to blossom and be what you are in the world.
Each individual seeks out companions for different reasons and each companion brings something different to her clients. The women I was inspired by found a way to nurture their natural talents and found patrons who were in turn nourished by their gifts. Flora represents unique qualities that I bring to my companion role. I want to celebrate my natural beauty, allow it to blossom, and share it. Luckily, I’ve always been fascinated by my personal symbols and attributes and pursued them as part of my spiritual path. I also want to share what I learn during that exploration of myself with others so they can learn new ways of nurturing themselves. By exploring what makes me happiest, I learn what I’m meant to cultivate.
I am a spiritual and sensual person. These two aspects of me, which are often considered to be separate by our society, are entwined in my nature. There’s no divide between what I experience in my daily life and what is sacred, because our very existence is sacred, the expression of life. It’s a very freeing way to live.
I find my devotion to the divine in what brings me pleasure, in what I feel and experience. By enjoying the taste of something, I’m thanking the source of it. By finding pleasure in the sound or sight of something, I am expressing my gratitude for it. I believe that the universe wants my pleasure and happiness and that it wants yours too. This is something I carry with me in my social life and companionship work. I interact with the world from this belief and encourage it in others.
We are playful creatures and without games and time to play, we become closed off to pleasure. We can’t receive nourishment if we don’t know how to relax and enjoy ourselves and games teach us not to take ourselves too seriously. Our lives are adventures for us to explore, a way of challenging ourselves to new heights, and we are meant to take pleasure from the journey. We enjoy the excitement of mystery and love to fulfill our natural curiosity when something delights us or captures our attention. I like to make space for the unknown in my life, for the spontaneous opportunities that only show themselves when you relax into what will be and let the universe bring you things you didn’t expect.
I strive for greater harmony in my life, where all aspects of my life support the others. This is always a work in progress as I get better and better at expressing myself. I try to live consciously and congruently, with reverence and respect to life. I serve my community through volunteering, sharing resources, building this website, caring for plants and animals that share my space, and sharing knowledge that has been shared with me. This sense of duty to the larger whole also expresses itself through my work with healing. To truly build community, we have to share what we’ve been given.
These things and more are the essence of what I am and what I bring to the world, because these are the lessons that the world continually brings to me. By exploring my strengths as an individual, I explore my strengths as a companion and what I can best bring to those who choose to spend time with me. As I devote myself to celebrating my strengths and nourishing myself, I am better able to serve and give of myself.
