The first full moon of the new year is tonight and after attending a community kitchen at The Good Food Club, I’m planning to continue the weekend’s festivities and celebrate and cement what I want to cultivate for the coming year.
Going back to work escorting doesn’t feel right. I don’t agree with the laws, but am bound by them and don’t want to put my roommates, my clients, or myself through more drama like this summer. Early last month, three sex workers launched a constitutional challenge against Canada’s prostitution laws, which endanger workers by denying them the right to work legally indoors or even hire security. While it could be quite a while before a resolution is reached, I’m hopeful and grateful that I live in a country that such a thing is possible. I don’t want to give up my profession completely. I’ve found a lot of growth in this path and it speaks to me spiritually. I want to continue to challenge myself and learn more about my sexuality and explore the sacredness, healing, and beauty in experiencing pleasure. I can continue to do that, just not as a working professional. I’ve decided to continue the course of study I charted out for myself when I first wanted to be a companion. In this way, I’ll still be honouring my path and putting my energy towards the pursuit of growth, instead of trying to continue working “underground” or with a fake name.
This opens up the area of career in my life. I love working with food security and feel passionate about the cause, which had me wondering if community development is where I should be. But after sitting with that thought for some time, thinking about how most jobs in the area are structured and investigating my school options, I didn’t feel excited about the idea of making a career out of community work. I want to continue to volunteer my time and resources, but choosing it as a primary outlet/source of income doesn’t suit. My heart still desires a path influenced by Venus.
One of my joys of the summer and autumn was the opportunity to attend festivals and shows around my city. I took in plays and a few burlesque shows, attended a lot more parties, planned my own events and performed a drag-to-femme striptease at a housing co-op fundraiser. I’ve been noticing a growing interest in entertainment and special events, as well as costuming and performance art. It seems like a natural off-shoot of my other interests (design, writing, marketing, the arts, etc) and my desire to learn more about entertaining and other social skills as part of my companion studies. I’m not sure how this will manifest in the coming months, but it sparks my interest and creativity and feels… congruent.
